I met the Devil, he’s so kind to me My best friend I bargained with him, he’s gonna make me feel Beautiful again I play with fire, hoping that the flames Won’t be kind But smashing my mirrors won’t destroy my face I’m so messed up inside Nothing’s really changed! Dad, I’m still the same Keep finding myself, scattered among everybody else Falling on my knees, father hear me out I’d be so happy, without your voice this loud I can’t stand myself! I am so alone I miss your warm embrace, help me get back home Nothing’s really changed! Dad, I’m still the same Keep finding myself, scattered among everybody else See, I contend, that when God kicked Adam and Eve out of the garden, it had nothing to do with a punishment—no penance for disloyalty I contend, and with some confidence, that Abba knew their souls couldn’t be caged Their minds too extraordinary to be occupied in ways so easy They’d never have to feel pain! Not even a dabble in suffering And that’s just no fun at all I am sure that when our Father planted that apple tree smack dab in the middle of the Garden of Eden, it makes more sense logically that he’d do so with reason Like he was hoping these lost and naked vagabonds would venture into a world that he could not make for them He wanted us to leave him And look, I think his children moving out was agonizing, but even Abba knew that there aren’t lessons he could teach them And in that beautiful garden, with trees whose trunks stretched upward for miles, whose leaves brushed the stratosphere With streams that carried their fish like they were newborn babies, tenderly Fruits that held elixir like it were sugar water, he knew that, trapped there, pain couldn’t reach them And life just wouldn’t be worth it without some pain Nothing’s really changed! Dad, I’m still the same Keep finding myself, scattered among everybody else Nothing’s really changed! Dad, I’m still the same Keep finding myself, scattered among everybody else

I was born a fighter, teeth bared and claws extended War is all I know! But I was born inside her, I need intimacy To keep my power going Crossed the fucking desert, swam in my own deep depression My demons know me well But living here is lonely, far from anyone who knows me I’d rather burn in hell In hell, in hell Give me your flames of glory In hell, in hell At least then I’m feeling something (x3) Maybe I just make excuses, I’m so useless. No one’s here Maybe I expect too much But what’s the fucking point of living, these long nights ain’t been forgiving I’ve been dying for your touch! Your touch, your touch Give me your flames of glory Your touch, your touch At least then I’m feeling something (x3) Father make me whole Teach me how to live alone Liberate my soul Cause my chest is getting heavy, and I’m not breathing till she tells me In hell, in hell You’re addicting my moon and my stars In hell, in hell Let your breaths match the beat of my heart In hell, in hell I get breathless chasing after your spark In hell, in hell It’s too bad I don’t know who you are I guess I’ll just rot in hell Give me your flames of glory Guess I’ll just rot in hell At least then, I’m feeling something (x3)

Wrap me up and bring me home, I can’t face this life alone Help me feel your love so true, Cause I’ve been running far from you And I’ll say, “Jesus, you’re mine.” But I think, Jesus, I’m lying Heal my scars and take the pain Show me justice in your name I used to trust the things you do But there are people who use you to make me feel shame And I’ll say, “Jesus, you’re mine.” But I think, Jesus, I’m lying Oh, oh oh oh, oh oh oh A human church is bound to fall But I want truth, or none at all I guess today your name is home, Cause I’ve got nowhere else to go, for now And I’ll say, “Jesus, you’re mine.” But I think, Jesus, I’m lying (x4)

I’ve been letting go of summer nights I will let the seasons change I convinced myself that here, with the skies so blue to clear, None of this could slip away And since I met you by the shore side, I mixed up happiness with sunlight But I think it’s time enough I see, yeah, your touch is killing me Friend, I’ll be on my away And I’ll take these long nights on my own, with my palms open wide And my head to the sky, catching snowflakes I’ll be okay I’ll be fine I’ll be fine I’ve been letting go of summer nights I can’t wait to be okay Today is the last time that I’ll pretend to be fine With choking inside your embrace And since I met you by the shore side, I was blinded by the sunlight But today I will begin, to make a home in my own skin Even the parts that I don’t like And I’ll take these long nights on my own, with my palms open wide And my head to the sky, catching snowflakes I’ll be okay I’ll be fine (x2)

Maybe, friends are only here to entertain me Cause laughing makes me wish I wasn’t dead And lately, I’ve been showering in bitterness like sunbeams Hoping to drown the voices in my head Save me, look I’ve tried this thing alone, and I’ve been praying But Jesus can’t appear, he don’t exist Take me, grab me by the shoulders, fucking shake me Wake me up this nightmare never ends And I know what you taught But you’re wrong, and I’m not Frankly, I’ve been getting bruised by my own heartbeat Has anyone alive survived this pain? I can’t keep treating my existence like the lottery Betting all I have to win some change And I know what you taught But you’re wrong, and I’m not I’m not wrong

I Believe in Change I am not afraid of a new tomorrow I will be okay, even if I’m broken I believe in change, I’ve believed in Jesus I’ll survive this day, I’ll live past this moment

Mom says I’m still sad, “Is that Prozac working?” And I’m like, “Mom, chill out.” Spring quarter’s been bad, I’ve been healing slowly Watching tulips sprout Prozac, I just wanted you to know that You put a smile on my face You light a fire in my heart And I think that I’ll be okay Cause there’s a part of me inside that’s changed Ultraviolet in my soul, no more hiding from the dark Sometimes I’m still sad. “Is that Prozac working?” And I’m like, girl, you’re fine! You learned how to love everyone around you Keep your growth in mind Prozac, I just wanted you to know that You put a smile on my face You light a fire in my heart And I think that I’ll be okay Cause there’s a part of me inside that’s changed I’ve got a family that raised me well Even if they’re a thousand miles away Be free! Loosen up those chains Turn from your old ways Let your mind explore itself Be free! Make this world your home Never drive alone Don’t be scared of harmonies